“The sheer volume embarrasses me,” I admit to my husband while standing over piles of clothes on my bedroom floor. Coats, shoes, shirts and pants pulled from my closet on a Saturday like leaves letting go of sturdy branches and falling in a heap. Outside, sun slants through a chameleon canopy with invitation but I’m choosing a shift in perspective on the inside.
This is more than a seasonal wardrobe change, we’re moving across the Atlantic without knowing any of the details about income, job placement or residence.
All we know is that keeping a mountain of “what-if” is no longer an option. Soon we’ll be living in England without walk-in closets, a garage or an attic. This new reality is redefining needs and wants. The underlined scripture verse in my Bible, where your treasure is, there your heart will be also, is no longer a warning to ponder but a conviction that results in repentance.
As I make piles to giveaway, sell and keep, I’m blushing, not about the extravagance of riches on hangers but what the excess illustrates. People refer to this move to England as brave but my closet says I am fearful.
As the wife of a pastor, this is our ninth move in 24 years of marriage making us experts in lengthy, uncomfortable transition. But our first international move reveals something different than the others.
At the core of my clothing insurance policy is the subtle question: What if Jesus isn’t enough?
Today I’m sharing 3 Questions to Ask Yourself before Letting Go at Christianity Today’s Gifted for Leadership blog. It just so happens I wrote this before knowing about our new home in London yet it’s still spot on. I pray that this revelation in a step of our move to England will be a place shedding new light on your own dim rooms of circumstance. Join me for the rest of the story?