Losing Track of Time to Find Yourself

by | Jul 16, 2012 | Uncategorized

With each look of the clock in summer’s early morning glow, I tick off another day until I return to the place that cultivates my authentic self. This anticipation, it keeps me sated among the dishes and dust, sweltering heat and heavy sighs of youth.

I long for first morning’s glance at the glassy lake glowing foggy mist at sunrise, to hear the faint lapping of water from a brood of ducklings swimming formation behind their mother. The smell of buttermilk pancakes and blueberries sputtering on the griddle mixed with the aromatic curls of French roast.

We welcome the twenty-two hours squeezed cozy in our mini-van, just to walk through the squeaky screen door of family roots on a lake in Canada. To the cottage nestled in pines, walls hanging with generations of laughter.

But . . . . .

I’m guesting posting today over at Denise in Bloom. Won’t you join me for the rest of the story, I’ll meet you over there.

Also in community today with Laura Boggess and Michelle Derusha.

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  1. toshowthemjesus

    This was so beautiful, Shelly! And this, “Because when we lose ourselves, unaware of time this way, our soul returns to its authentic state among the clamor of life’s distraction.” I want to find my authentic state. Thanks for this!

    • Redemption's Beauty

      Thanks for coming back to leave a comment here Christina, its one of the things I miss with guest posting . . .all the conversation on my site. Appreciate you friend. When do you leave for that conference?

  2. ljbmom

    I’m heading over to read the rest, Shelly. Just to say–how wonderful to have such a place to return to time and time again.

    • Redemption's Beauty

      It is wonderful, something I don’t take for granted.

  3. simplystriving

    As usual, I soaked in every word, Shelly. Beautiful guest post!
    (and I just finished reading Madeline L’Engle’s Walking on Water! I’m reading her Ordering of Love right now…can’t get enough.

    • Redemption's Beauty

      Oh, I haven’t heard of that one. I’m sure its wonderful like all her others. For some reason, finding time to read when I’m not tired has been hard. I have a whole stack I want to get to and when I finally sit down to read I’m falling asleep. Maybe on vacation!

  4. Pam@Writing...Apples of Gold

    What bliss. Enjoy your time resting in Him, enjoying your family and surroundings.

  5. lolitavalle

    I am so happy that you got time to relax and enjoy your side of the lake.

    Thank you for the new words I learned about Chronos and kairos.

    I love the slower hear beat as opposed to the panting heart when we depart from Jesus’ side, on our own. That is what we always experience in His loving arms.

    My Kairos:

    “I’m finding myself reflected there beside you and my heart beats a bit slower now as he cradles me in the crook of his arm.”

    That should be my wished-for Kairos-instead of a panting heart.

    • Redemption's Beauty

      Thanks for leaving a comment at both places, your such a faithful follower and I truly appreciate your kind words, always.

  6. tara pohlkotte

    sigh. i just rested here in the finding, friend!

    • Redemption's Beauty

      Oh, I’m glad. Loved your post on celebrating marriage. Happy anniversary Tara.

  7. caallyn

    Ontario is where my in-laws live, St. Catharines to be exact. Time is something that I am working out these days. After 15 years with no children, well, having a little 6 year old follow me around takes some getting used to. In other words, my time is not my own. Back in Ethiopia when he went to bed at 7ish, I would collapse into bed…so much for devotions. I would fall asleep praying. These days, God fills my mind as I look to Him for strength and a host of other things.
    thanks for your prayers Shelly. Enjoy your time with your family.

    • Redemption's Beauty

      I’m sure he’s turned your world upside down Celeste, in a good way. But it takes time to get used to their presence needing you when you haven’t had that before. Jesus will be your strength when you feel like you have none. And every day, it’ll get easier to be a mama. Praying for you this morning.

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